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Stained Dreams Chapter 2

Stained Dreams (formally Conflicting Loyalties) Chapter 2, revised
by Sailor Draco

Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon.

The ticking of the timer echoed annoyingly around them as Rei paced back and forth in the bathroom. Every tick pushed her further towards panicing as she contemplated the consequences.
"Calm down Rei," said Usagi. "We'll know in a few moments."
She slammed her fist on the counter in frustration then sat on the bathtub edge, putting her head in her hands. The chiming of the time made her jump. She looked at Usagi, wide eyed.

"What does it say?" asked Rei, voice hoarse.

Usagi looked at the test for a moment, then turned to watch Rei. "Pregnant," she said slowly.
Rei buried her head in her hands again as a torrent of emotions ragged inside of her. Part of her was ecstatic at the thought of having a child with Yuuichirou. Another part of her wanted to burst into tears with grief. She was loyal to her senshi duty above all else. How could she carry a child to full term when there was always a fight looming around the corner, when she was always getting roughed up in battle? How could she have both?
She didn't realize she was sobbing until Usagi placed her warm arms around her.
"It's okay Rei-chan," comforted Usagi. "We can deal with this."
"I... don't.... know how," Rei sobbed.
"We just defeated an enemy about a month ago," reminded Usagi. "There isn't any threats right now."
"There's... always... another... fight... around the corner," Rei continued to cry.
"Yeah, but sometimes these wars are a year apart," encouraged Usagi. "You'll probably haven given birth before the next enemy attacks."
"And if I haven't?" Rei asked as the tears started to lessen while her head ached.
"Then you'll just be off duty," said Usagi. "You can still read the fires, but you won't be on the battle field."
"I can't do that!" exclaimed Rei. "I wouldn't forgive myself... if something happened to you guys because I wasn't around to help!"
"As your Princess I order you to stay off the battlefields," Usagi smiled. "Rei-chan, there's nothing wrong with taking some time to yourself. We have to cling to our lives outside of being a senshi as best as we can. Those times are what give us strength when the chips are down."
"I don't know if I can do this," confessed Rei.
"You can," insisted Usagi. "We will all help you Rei-chan. Besides, Yuuichirou well make a great father!"

"Thank you Usagi-chan," Rei said as she hugged her back.


Rei found Yuuichirou in the middle of his chores. She smiled to herself, thinking of how he really stepped up to the role of priest since her grandfather died shortly after their wedding. She knew she couldn't have kept the shrine running without Yuuichirou. He and the senshi were all the family she had left. She put a hand on her belly and smiled, warming at the thought of the life growing inside of her. She had never given much thought before to the idea of starting a family of her own. She wasn't sure how she felt about it as anxiety played with her heart beat. Watching Yuuichirou steaded her, gave her faith that they could do this, made her want to do it. Taking a big breath, she walked towards him.

A smile light up his face when he saw her. She smiled big in return.
"What's going on Rei?" he asked. "I thought you had a senshi meeting?"
"It ended early," she said nervously.
"Is there something wrong?" he asked, reading the uneasiness in her voice.
She had wanted the moment to be perfect, to be sweet. She didn't want to jump into the news right away. Her mouth had other ideas. "I'm pregnant," she blurted out, blushing deeply.
He stared at her silently, mouth and eyes wide in shock. Then he picked her up and spun her in the air with a huge smile on his face.
"That's fantastic!" he exclaimed.
She couldn't help but laugh as he put her down and hugged her closely. For a moment the world stood still, consisting of only them and the child inside of her. Strength and peace flowed over her as he held her, as his love filled her. We can do this, she thought. They stood there, enjoying the moment as thoughts of the future filled their heads.
"You've talked with the other senshi about this?" he finally asked.
"Only Usagi. She's ordered me off any future battlefield until after the birth," she said uneasily as the feeling of betraying her senshi duty filled her.
"It's for the best," he said as he understood her frustration.
"I just pray no one attacks us," confessed Rei. "I don't know what I would do if any of them died and I wasn't there."
"It will work out," promised Yuuichirou, ever the optimist. "You'll see."
"I hope so," Rei replied.
Yuuichirou kissed her passionately. Rei gasped in surprise then returned the kiss, smiling afterwards.The joy and optimisim he felt filled her heart to the brim.
"I hope it's a girl," he said smiling a smile that reached his eyes. "With your raven locks."
She starred at him in surprise. She really hadn't thought about anything but carrying to full term. She started to panic as she thought of everything involved with having a baby.
"We have to pick out names! And get a nursery ready! Am I going to breast-fed or will senshi battles interfere with that? What if the kid doesn't like me?"
"Calm down Rei!" Yuuichirou laughed. "We have nine months to figure everything out."
She looked at him skeptically. That didn't seem like enough time to her.
"Don't worry Rei, everything well work out," he smiled.
She couldn't help but return that smile as she embraced him again, silently praying that everything would work, that she could carry the baby full term. She knew one battle could end everything. That very thought haunted her every dream from that day on.
Tags: 2009, canon, rei & yuuichirou, revision, romance
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